I've messed up badly and I risk losing my female friend. What can I do to rectify things? I'm a 30-sthg guy?

ie Grabber, You need to learn that there is a time and place to grab a and have a little self-awareness next time you're with a girl. What you did is really creepy and comes off as pervy, not sweet. She doesn't have these feelings for you. I'm sorry. Time to move on.